Never again in life
Will I confuse this disrespect with love
This codependency with affection
Or this dysfunction as a future.
It took me over 3 years to really take heed
Of just how much I’ve endured and excused
Telling myself that it was normal
When everything and everybody seemed to scream differently.
I’ve never felt so devalued in the name of love
Except for that time when my dad loved me, but if I “was only”…etc then he would be capable of loving me more
She was a mistake that never disguised itself
I just chose to see beauty in someone selfish and inconsiderate
And now, I am truly done.