The Real

Sometimes we spend all of our energy trying to “fix” things.
Fix our happiness.

We can get lost in the shuffle of trying to remain positive, having negative thoughts or realizations babysits your ability to hold on to what makes you feel sad and “fix” it, so it can somehow turn around and make you feel whole again.

Not going to happen.

Empty confidence creates empty promises. You promise yourself that you have the ability to make others work with you, work around your problems. You can’t. I can’t. So the real question becomes, just how do we “fix” things, or fix our happiness? Well, first you have to realize that happiness is a state of mind, not a situation, relationship, or possession. Some things can’t be repaired, or maybe it was never in perfect condition in the first place, you were just in a place where broken things felt easier to grasp. I know that deep down inside, you want to let go. But you are afraid. You are waiting for it to walk away from you, for it to hurt you before it can heal you, but there is no guarantee that will happen.

I want you to be happy, more than anything else. I recognize that things aren’t where we want them to be, not sure it will ever happen. But first you have to stop denying that the way to “fix” you is to put your happiness first, and I am not that.